The term best friend has very little significance anymore. After school I learnt that people just come and go are rarely stay, no matter how much you try or how much effort you put in.
First there was one who knew me for 13 years. There were sleepovers, parties, birthday presents, days out with each other's families, days out together, midnight feasts everything. Unfortunately no matter how hard I may have tired this faded when we left school and in the 2 years since I've seen her twice and I might get a reply by text every 6 months. Although when we see each other it is like nothing has changed, its not a best friend relationship because we aren't there to talk.
In between there have been the few who I considered good friends however these were not the types of relationships that ended in us being that close, never really the best friend just another friend.
More recently I became really good friends with some one out of the blue. Like before we would go out and just talk, I could talk to her about anything. She was round mine till 12 watching crap on T.V. I had the girlie talks again. It was refreshing. However now it seems it has turned one way no matter how much I am there for her.
I've given up with all of that now. The closest I have is my boyfriend, he makes me happy, makes me laugh, know how to cheer me up and I can rely on him.
From now on I rely on no one except him and my family, seems I will get less hurt that way!
Rant over!
