This weeks viewing

Being ill on Monday and still not feeling great has led me to watch many a weird and wonderful programme!
I have watched

“sex please, were British” about the sex toy industry

“Strippers” you guessed it about strippers in Scotland

“Three’s not a crowd” about the boom in open relationships.

“Dogging diaries” about dogging

“My daughter the teen nudist” about nudists

And ofc "One Born Every Minute" love that programme!
I do love channel 4 for their programmes and must say it has open my eyes, and yes before you say it they are all of some sexual nature, but it’s just so weird how “the other half live” sometimes. I must add however sometimes these things have an appeal and look exciting and other times I find myself wondering why the hell I am watching what I’m watching. Nevertheless it was an eye opener I suppose, whether it has broadened my knowledge or made me a better person I don’t know but hey I was ill which meant watching this crap and the normal 4 in a Bed and Come Dine with Me. It’s been a good week…. Now back to stressing about essays!

Student joys!

:D

So happy right now,
Melty and soppy but wouldn't change it.
Think good decisions have been made,
Realisations realised
And this is the result.
This is my fresh start :D woo

How good...

Would it be just to start again,
Reinvent yourself,
Just the two of us,
Can't wait to grow up,
Leave the shit behind :)
Year and half to go then it's grown up Jess time :D

I've decided...

I'm 20 in 2 months exactly so I've decided I'm going to make some changes...

1.Firstly (although don't hold me to this because I may go back on it), I'm getting rid of the red and back to dark brown the next time I dye my hair
2. Carrying on with the hair theme, I am not a hair dresser and should stop trying to trim my fringe... It never works out well.
3. To appreciate who I have in my life, who cares about me the same I as do them, can't be doing with a one way thing!
4. That my 20's are going to be an expensive time (marriage, kids, house etc hopefully) so regardless of the saving I have already after this years holiday I'm saving big time! To help towards moving out OR Disney world.
5. To follow what I really want but only when I'm sure, not letting my heart rule my head (other than on the Disney World holiday)
6. To evaluate who I need and want in my life, that are going to stay with me through out this decade and longer and get rid of those who I don't need.
7. To stop trying to help everyone and focus on me, maybe selfish but I've realised bending over backwards for people all the time isn't worth it because they rarely ever appreciate it.
8. To be positive about getting a job and starting a career in something I love doing, to be confident that I am capable and enjoy it before I decide to start the whole family thing.
9. To try not to be so emotional and cry all the time, need to toughen up because no matter how much people think they know me, and I'm apparently not soft hearted, I think you'd be surprised behind closed doors what I'm like, how upset the small things make me and how peoples opinions really effect me. If only walls could talk and all that!
10.Finally, no matter how old I get, like Peter Pan, I never have to grow up inside!

I've got a good feeling about this, let's put it into action ready!
I'm getting prepared for the busiest, most fascinating and exciting decade of my life so far I think.
Let's hope it starts out well and I can put all my younger mistakes behind me :)
Chin up