This smile is becoming permanent

Apart from the shock of a loss of a wonderful man last week, this summer has caused a permanent smile on my face.
I know I have some amazing friends and Uni and am counting down the days till I'm back, different to last year and a thousand times better.
My holiday to Belgium/ Paris/ Disneyland was absolutely amazing and I wish I could go back! So many laughs and loving memories and I feel so lucky to have him by my side, being spoilt and feeling so deeply in love.
And to look forward to 2 weddings, being a bridesmaid and loving wearing my dress at every fitting and just feeling so excited for my future!
I don't want to be close to the end of Uni but the thought of doing what I've wanted, marriage, a house, kids etc is all getting more exciting the near it becomes..... Although not too soon for some of them!
I CAN'T WAIT!

Change

It's amazing how a place used to be somewhere to look forward to but in a few days you can dred going back. Blackpool was a place of many weeks or weekends away with family friends who were more like family than some of my family. The next time I'm there it's to say good bye to a man who always made us laugh, cheered us up and who made my brother normal for just one week last year during all his mental health problems.

 It's ridiculous how quick someone can be taken and its made me realise how much I want to achieve all the mile stones before someone I am close to leaves. His daughter gets married in under a month and I wouldn't want my dad miss my milestones.