Atleast not right now.
Don't get me wrong the last year has been great, growing up, going to Uni, getting a volunteering placement at prison. The thought of a full time job excites me and marriage and having the family I know in 10 years time will be complete, no doubt.
But it's been this time away in a place we always used to come. Just outside Blackpool our family friends have always lived and we have always visited. It was great as a kid so exciting, a time where we always went out. But now being back, it's a bit deflated. The great big adventures are now slightly disappointing, mainly because we've done most things but also because every adventure was big when your only small. Also as you grow up so does very one else and with that comes the evils of old, the friends aren't in great health and so haven't accompanied us on our trips out. Mums back is bad so it's been difficult and well Kieran wasn't as fun as he used to be more annoying. Kind of looking forward to him growing up a little bit more truth be told.
It's made me realise that it's time for me to have adventure with the boyfriend like we do normally but that it's the end of the era of family holidays as such and that now a family holiday is with just him. in a few years time will develop into family holidays with our children, creating the big adventures I had, with them when they are still small enough to see everything as big and fascinating. I can't wait for this of course, as he well knows as I can be quite broody at times (possibly an understatement) but nevertheless part of me want to go back just for one last time before I have to make all the decisions and no one is there to guide me, after all I swear the boyfriend is more of a child in many way.... Let's hope he grows up soon ;)
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