Not sure how I feel lately,
although I'm always a bit confused, these new feelings are strange.
I've moan about how much he needs me for things like money etc, but now he is learning to do things without me and doing it well, I feel slightly redundant, like he isn't going to need me so therefore wont want me.
This isn't helping the worry about where he will end up. I may get annoyed and angry and really wish he was different, but now I'm wondering what will happen. I feel like I am nothing without him. I don't have the large friendship group I'm always with if he isn't here, because if he isn't here I feel so alone. I wish I had that group of friends sometimes, then others I remember how much a big group of girls annoys me (thanks all girls school for that). Its not like I don't have friends, I'm just not the one they are close with I'm "the other one".
I suppose its amazing how I have spent month wondering if I am with the right person now realising the idea of being on my own is scarier :/ oh well I'll never know.
Then again, I'll survive, I always do.
Be cheerier next week hopefully :)
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